This weekend has been quite interesting for me. Everywhere I look, there's love and compassion, or at least the want for it, around every corner. Several students are already married or engaged, and several are dating, trying to find that eternal companion. Now, the boy that I dearly love is on the other side of the country waiting for his mission call, and so although I miss him terribly, I am easily able to retrain myself from reaching outward for that physical comfort of another's warmth. My friends on the other hand are another story. One friend has a missionary, or had. Long story. One friend is getting ready for his mission in a year or so, but is in at a LDS school where unfortunately, no one wants to date a pre-missionary. Another friend says one thing to keep her sane, but then continues to act in that want and desire for acceptance. Heartbreak is one of the most painful things we as human beings experience, and it varies in different degrees for everyone. All I know, if I am preparing myself for heartbreak and at the same time pure bliss in a few months. I was thinking today... I am one of those people where if I have someone on my mind and in my heart, it's almost impossible to act upon flirtatious habits with anyone else. What if for 2 years I can't let go and try to have fun? What if I suffer through heart break for 24+ months until I know if he and I work out? It's a scary thought, and a legitimate thought. My mind set right now is that I am his best friend and he is mine. He will always be apart of my heart regardless of where life takes us. It's now that time to almost put up armor.
The song that I'm playing right now is "Love Who You Love" by Rascal Flatts. Love who you love, give all you've got like it's like your day. Don't waste the time to fly so fast. Hold on as tight as they'll let you. Love who you love, say that you do, with all that you have.
I love him. Always have, always will.
1 comment:
if there is one thing I have learned, it is to love with no regrets. Move forward and love with everything you have, because if you don't, you will regret that. Heartbreak SUCKS, but the things you learn from relationships and best friends can never be replaced.
I'm thankful for the things I learned in winter semester, about love and about myself. I do not regret those months. As hurtful as the end was, I do not regret. and I think that makes heartbreak a little less painful and a little more worth it.
Post a Comment