Butterflies

Whew! It's been crazy. I'm definitely keeping busy. And it's not like I have a lot to do, it's just a lot of brain function that I don't posess for 5 hours in a row. I do love my classes, even if I have to get pricked for one of them! I'm about to go meet with the Bishopric and then I'll probably try to stay active. I'm learning more and more about the human body, and how wellness plays an important factor. Apart of that physical wellness, it includes spiritual, emotional, intellectual, social, and environmental wellness. Let's just say I'm working on it.

I want to start writing in a private journal about my thoughts too personal to put on a blog. I've attempted several times but it's never turned out very successful. I'm sure if you go through my room there are a lot of random letters with crazy dates, some one day after the other and then months later. I was just thinking to myself today... I feel like my heart is in my throat and that I have butterflies in my stomach... I haven't had butterflies since junior year of high school. I feel this sudden wave of emotion and for the first time, I really can't figure out why. Maybe it is just hormones and stress all compressed into one. Or maybe I'm subconsciously thinking about my near future. How I have my first science exam of the semester this weekend, or how I'm supposedly going down to Utah for General Conference. Or how I would love to go home one weekend to surprise my family. Or how Casey just had his last interview with the Stake President before his mission papers go into Salt Lake. I was talking to a good friend today and we were guessing where Casey will be called. Mike guessed either England, New Mexico, or Taiwan. I don't know if New Mexico would be too cose or not. We also discussed that if he got called to Portland, his stake president would have to write the First Presidency asking them to rethink their inspiration... aka, I'm from Portland.

Anyway, I am going to head out with butterflies in tummy and heart in throat. I will be strong and I will overcome. It's just... overwhelming once in a while!