Love

I watch a lot of T.V. Probably too much. Well, in my opinion anyway. A few friends and I have this tradition of watching 3 hours of television every thursday night. We enjoy weekly new shows of Flash Forward, Grey's Anatomy, and Private Practice. However, I also find myself watching One Tree Hill lately, every thursday/friday online since I always miss it during the week.

I just watched the latest episode called "I and Love and You". I won't go into details about the actual plot of the show as it's irrelevant to what's on my mind tonight, but this is where I got it from. I am paraphrasing, but one character told how easy it is to fall in love. How incredibly wonderful, and amazing, and truly magnificant it feels to fall in love. We can't help who we're attracted to, and we can't help who we fall for, or even when we fall for them. Love is irrational. And because falling in love makes us so happy, it hurts like heck when we fall out of it. Falling in love is easy, but what about a lifetime of love? That is truly amazing.

What is love, anyway? I have forgotten what love is, because I'm trying to protect myself. Thankfully, the people around me and my heavenly Father remind me constantly that I am loved and that I do know what love is, as much as I can at my age. In high school, love was defined to us as "choosing the highest possible good for the other person". Now, to me that sounds like a very unselfish definition, setting aside your own wants and needs to make sure your significant other is happy and cared for. The fact that I was shutting down was selfish. Others were becoming hurt due to me actions and words, and I didn't even realize it.

Call me crazy, but I believe in love above all else, and love can and will conquer anything: hardships, distance, time. I believe that the Lord's tender mercies will reveal to us happiness in the form of service. When you provide service to others, you show love.

When I say I love you, believe me. I'm sorry I lost sight of what truly matters most. I'm sorry that I let pride and selfishness get the best of me. Sometimes we lose ground and slip away for a period of time, and if you let us, we always come back.

You could say I'm in love.